I realised when I finished reading that I was holding my breath, realised because you describe the tension in your stomach during the awful, traumatic events that you have faced.
Then I remembered to breathe. I then thought about the chronic, isolating insomnia I had during my first pregnancy, triggered by the appalling attack on the Twin Towers ( I discovered years later ) I subconsciously needed to stay awake until my baby was safely born. Other instances come to mind
where I’ve felt panicked by not being able to breath and not realised why and how that was a response to fear, but also anger and outrage.
Thank you for that enlightenment Karen and your honesty and commitment ❤️
thanks so much for your honest and heartfelt reply. I am sorry you went through that in your pregnancy. But happy you noticed, noticed, noticed you were holding your breath whilst reading. That's the first step really. Noticing what we are already habitually doing. ;)
The fear bit is often easier to identify but we are conditioned much more to deny anger and outrage which are fierce life energies that also need to be safely expressed. I hope you are finding ways to do that... <3
Read this with great empathy.
I realised when I finished reading that I was holding my breath, realised because you describe the tension in your stomach during the awful, traumatic events that you have faced.
Then I remembered to breathe. I then thought about the chronic, isolating insomnia I had during my first pregnancy, triggered by the appalling attack on the Twin Towers ( I discovered years later ) I subconsciously needed to stay awake until my baby was safely born. Other instances come to mind
where I’ve felt panicked by not being able to breath and not realised why and how that was a response to fear, but also anger and outrage.
Thank you for that enlightenment Karen and your honesty and commitment ❤️
Hi Carmen,
thanks so much for your honest and heartfelt reply. I am sorry you went through that in your pregnancy. But happy you noticed, noticed, noticed you were holding your breath whilst reading. That's the first step really. Noticing what we are already habitually doing. ;)
The fear bit is often easier to identify but we are conditioned much more to deny anger and outrage which are fierce life energies that also need to be safely expressed. I hope you are finding ways to do that... <3