#8 Coming More Into Myself
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Coming into myself.
Being firm about boundaries, whilst still being kind.
What does it mean to be me?
Truly deeply me?
Who am I really?
A pretty relaxed, calm, creative being.
Not needing to be anything else other than…
Ahh.... that's it.
What do I want to do today?
Where does the tide take me?
Lots of questions.
That's who I am.
A joyful bundle of curiosity.
When I just let go.
Let go and listen to my heart.
A warm, connected, smiley person.
And what next?
I know because I am already doing it.
Already doing life my way.
Well sometimes no pressure.
Still learning that one.
I have done enough work on myself.
Thank goodness for that!
I don't need to do more.
What a relief.
Relax and be.
And be and be and be.
Because I am loved.
I am already loved, so I have nothing to prove.
Those that don't get it are on their own journeys.
That’s hard to remember when guilt, doubt or shame engulf me.
I don't care what people think any more.
Not true, but I want it to be true.
But it will never be true.
I still have to live my way.
Gathering my heart in my hands,
Looking it in the eye,
I apologise for taking so long and listen.
I know who I am.
What I be.
The doing comes from that.
I am excited to 'do' from a place of authenticity.
Successful, proud but not smug.
Relishing it all.
Revelling in gratitude for what I have and what I have achieved.
On my own.
Through tough times.
Through easier times.
Even through pretending and being inauthentic.
And making tough decisions.
The limiting beliefs
can all be let go.
There is no place for them in an authentic heart.
They are all part of me.
They all need love too.
Of course they will arise again out of habit.
They can go too. Those habits.
Bit by bit.
Notice. Acknowledge. Accept. Allow to pass through...
Engage with it all.
Feel it fully.
Let it wash through me…
And eventually new habits replace them.
Gradually building momentum.
To a creative life.
A more easeful way of being.
There is much that I don't understand yet.
Much to learn.
But I don't have to learn it all today, now or in this moment.
And when I am in this moment I have nothing to learn.
I can just be.
What else? What else?
Who do I choose to share this time with?
These lovely people.
They are my life.
This is My life.