#14 Dear Steve,
Steve was my best friend and losing him is the the most painful experience I have ever gone through in my life.
It has been my intention for some years to write a book as a series of letters to him of all the things I have wanted to talk to him about. All the things I want to ask. All the family experiences he’s missed. I think it will tell a story, a sort of memoir of our lives together, but also show people how to come through grief and live again.
Somewhere in the ether
Any time in space
you know I’m no writer so I’ll keep it brief.
You’re right you have nothing to apologise for. I love you. I’ve always loved you and will always love you but I think you know that in your heart.
Whatever I might have become I already was in many ways. It’s hard to change who you are. You know that better than most.
I watch Jake sometimes. I saw him back then and tried to reach him. I hope I did. I see how he’s changed and how your relationship has blossomed.
Anyway enough of that soppy stuff.
Lots a love
Take care Mother
PS. Dear Steve, Dear Sis, Dear Luke are on pause at the moment while I gather more energy and find more flow again….
You can find out more about my story and what I’m doing to build a Community of Deeply Caring over giving people pleasers who want to make the shift from Exhausted Caretakers to Empowered Caretakers here.